Hey Guys
I decided to quit on the whole review thing because 1) I was crap at it and 2) it was boring.
The update thing kind of went to pots too because I'm in the school play and holy crap do they want to rehearse! Anyway I'm not really sure about the whole inspiration behind this post but let's just see where it goes, plus I have a big feeling I've done something like this before but eh time for a new version!
Love is complicated. I remember when I was little and how I watched everyone around me fall in and out of love with someone whether it was real life or on a TV show, now at first I thought it was disgusting having to kiss and get married and have children with another person because that was who I was, someone who wasn't a fan of that four lettered word.
Granted I was six till around ten at the time but after expanding on my romance film and book collection I realise that love isn't just loving your other half, that actually it's way more than that like; sharing their interests, having fun, being happy and comfortable with that special guy or girl. It's all of the above and more.
Now I think I'm getting to that stage in my life where love can be acceptable and I can start letting my heart wander to it's other half and fall in love and get my heartbroken (I'm year ten so I'd like to think I'm a year away from all the relationships). Yes, I think if you say you're in love at 11 that it isn't love and don't you dare even say "Well Juliet was young when she was with Romeo" because that story ended in death and it lasted for three days if not five.
The thing is when thinking of love there are loads of types of it, not the being in love part but who you're in love with. You could be straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, the list goes on. Now I think I'm straight and have a love for boys but you know what? I may not find out that I'm gay till I'm about 18 and realise that my gender could be way better or that like I both. But right now I like boys and have one in particular in mind (that's another story).
Okay so this goes a bit personal and sharing this on internet could go either way but lets just bite the bullet and do it. Is it wrong for me to want to experiment as to which gender I like? I mean there are some girls that maybe pretty or not that I just get this awkward thought in my head that says "What would your kiss be like? Who'd be the metaphorical guy in the relationship? Would you be cute? Would people understand at your age?" now I do try and push those thoughts away because although those thoughts come into my head for some girls they do for guys too. Now I don't know what the thoughts mean but I might as well keep them there because my mind is a weird place which NO ONE needs to see.
But here's the weird thing, I've never been in a relationship. I mean I did say that I shouldn't be falling in love just now and maybe a year later I can but I mean I haven't even been in those petty relationships. You know the ones, those weird ones with that boy in year four where you sit and hold hand in the playground but never meet outside of school and find the whole experience awkward, yeah those ones. I like to think (although it's a bad thing on my confidence) that I am a boy repellent I mean I can talk to boys but I can't keep the conversation going. My friend on the other hand gets boys dropping to her feet practically everyday ( I won't go into that story though because 1) it's a very long one and 2) it's her personal stuff).
I guess that's partially why I hate romance films, although they're sweet and cute and funny as hell I just feel like I'll never be able to get that with someone ever, because like I said I am a boy repellent.
I don't know I guess through the years my knowledge on this topic has grown and weirdly have given relationship advice to (annoyingly) a boy I really liked, probably because I had a vast knowledge of it from books because trust me his situation could have been made into a film it was an exact replica of those love triangles you see today.
Well that's my post on this topic for you. I think I might just post weekly whenever and see where that goes to be honest so I will see you when I see you.
Comment your thoughts and hey if you want some stories on this or something just ask and I'll give my view or story it.
No more anonymous, no more hiding, Just me
Izzy xx
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